Top 20 idols of all time.

I love idols. I really do. They're the perfect image of happiness for me. They're hardworking, talented young people who try their very best to stand out in a crowd and I have to respect that. I love idol so much that I am approaching my 10th year of following idols. 10 years, everybody. That's almost half my life. In 10 years, you meet a lot of girls, get a lot of favourites and see a lot of changes.
This post is basically just telling you my top 20 idols of all time, as mentioned in the title, hah.

This was a very hard list to make and structure as, while 20 seems an awfully high number (for some reason), it was extremely hard to narrow it all down as oh my GOD there are so many fantastic idols. You'll notice my idols knowledge does not extend further that H!P and 48. I have been pretty focused on these, and there's already so much to work with in those two alone haha. Please note that these 20 might as well all be #3, they're so close together (though my top 2 is very much my top 2).

Alright, might as well get into it as... well it's gonna be a loooong ride.

#20 Kudo Haruka

Oh Duu, how I already miss you. 

It was impossible for Duu to not get a spot here, because.. if it wasn't for Duu, my MM fandom might have died in 2012. I was in Japan, buying Renai Hunter (My second H!P purchase), because it was Niigaki Risa's last single, and Risa was the last girl I truly had a connection with at the time. But I saw Haruka on that cover and immediately thought:

"...Damn... She's too fucking cute."

And so an interest sparked in her, and with her an interest in the new, colourful Musume. She was my favourite all the way to Ai no Gundan, where her spot was taken by a certain someone else. Still, this incredibly beautiful, talented young woman is the entire reason I stuck with MM in the first place, and so seeing her go was devistating. 

#19 Katsuta Rina

Who's next in the queue? Oh hey, it's Rinapuu

Hah, two orange girls in a row. I like orange girls. Rina, oh Rina. The used-to-be-a-secret-weapon-but-not-so-secret-anymore. Angelic voice, adorable aesthetic and wonderfully weird that is Rinapuu. When I first got into S/mileage (remember S/mileage?), I had a very tough time chosing between Rina and Meimi as my favourite. Rina was just too damn charming and too damn pleasant to watch for me to ignore her. Then when the group became Angerme, I was worried about the cutie Rina in a cooler environment, but let's be honest... she is fierce as hell. She reminds me a little of Hagiwara Mai in a sense, because she's more out there, more 'daring'. She seems like she takes shit from no one, and her fashion sense is so weird that is is brilliant. 

#18 Matsui Rena

Idol Extrema, here's Matsui Rena

Ayyy the first non H!P girl. Matsui Rena... what a girl. I saw her on AKBINGO! and immediately adored her. The episode where she gets hypnotized into saying Aiin~ was so funny and so cute that I looked forward to any future episode where she made an appearance. If she was there, I knew it was gonna be good. Her solo song Kareha no Station is so pleasant and basically became my theme for Autumn 2014. Even my dad likes that song. She was my favourite SKE member and I completely disconnected from the group after her graduation. 

#17 Goto Maki

She'll never be tacky, it's Goto Maki

I don't think I need to state what is awesome about Gocchin. Everything from her upbringing, her tenure in MM to her solo career just forces one to have respect this woman. She is an incredible talent with one hell of a relatable personality. She was, to me, the originator of "so inapprochable but yet so approchable" (Yajima Maimi and Shinoda Mariko have the same feeling for me) . Her solo songs are absolute jams and I've yet to see a performance of them as charismatic and awesome as Gocchins (Takahashi comes close... but... not quite there). She was the perfect ace for Morning Musume (I love Nacchi, but let's be real) and imho an even better solo artist. 

#16 Niinuma Kisora

Yes! I adore-a, Niinuma Kisora

Is this a girl or a kitten? I'll never know. She's definitely too cute to be real. I've followed Niinu since her KSS days and I was extremely thrilled to see her debut in Tsubaki Factory. For a long time, I was certain she was going to be my favourite with her feline features alone, but alas she didn't quite make the cut. She is a close second in Tsubaki though, as my love for her as well as my love for the group has continued to consistently grow. I have yet to understand what it is exactly that just captures me about Kisora. She's just so.... lovely. Her face is lovely, her voice is lovely, her personality is lovely, her aura is lovely, her dancing is lovely, hell the girl is just all around L-O-V-E-L-Y. I hope she stays around for a long long long long time.

#15 Niigaki Risa

Straight outta Chan Pon Chan, It's GAKI-SAN

Niigaki Risa is a wonderful human being. She's the Powerhouse of Platinum. The Reaction Queen. Creator of Chan Pon Chan, Je M'appelle and Hanihuheho, the obvious capitals of China, France an Korea. 50% of the legendary GakiKame. There's no reason not to adore this one right here. Gaki-san is an absolute joy to watch when she is performing, whether it be singing or acting. She went from being an adorable goofy airhead to being the absolute mom of early colourful and it has been magical to watch that growth. 

#14 Wakana Otaki, Keiki Kubota & Hikaru Masai

Holy Hibina it's Kalafina

Ok I don't know what Hibina is.. Still.. I know Kalafina isn't exactly an idol group. They're mainly anime artists... But I had to mention them because they are so freaking talented. I first heard them when I head the ending song to Black Butler "Kagayaku Sora no Shijima ni Wa" and it was so beautiful that I had to look up who was singing it. From there I found the album 7th heaven and I was in love.. But it was all I knew.

 Then one faithful day I was randomly listening to Japanese radio at my dad's place when quite possibly one of the most beautiful song I've ever heard started playing - and I thought I recognized the sound. So I shazamed it (accept Shazam as your lord and saviour today) and what do you know.. it was "Red Moon" by Kalafina... THEY HAD MADE ANOTHER ALBUM. God.. god I love them so much. Though I have to be honest.. Red Moon came out in 2010, then After Eden in 2011 (also fantastic btw)... and... I know they've done more since, but I have not heard it. I need to listen to them again. 

#13 Oda Sakura

She's never far, it's Oda Sakura(r)

Oh Sakura, the first girl to give me true oshi feelings since Eri. I loved her from the audition footage. I loved her when she was announced as the 11th gen of MM, I loved her when she got her first single and I still love her to this day. It really didn't take long before I considered myself a #Sakuraddict hah. My love for her never faded, it's just my love for other H!P fans that grew. She's fantastic, beautiful and one of the best voices MM has had imho. She's charming, funny and seems to be a good senior to the younger gens. She's the longest lasting solo gen so far, so she's already established herself as a legendary Musume, but I hope we won't see the end of her for a while. 

#12 Okai Chisato

You'll know absolute bliss-a once you get to know Chissa

I've already pretty much established in my Love Letter to C-ute post why I adore Chisato so much. I have a long list ahead of me, so I won't say it all again. I respect her. She is amazing. She deserves everything she has gotten. 

#11 Takahashi Ai

No need for goodbye when it's Takahashi Ai

Cute. Sexy. Beautiful. Cool. This girl can do it all. From the dorky "Itakunaimoon~" from Hello! Morning to the sexy Moonlight Night dance, Aibutt is able to adapt to any given situation. Not to mention, girl's got pipes. Her and Reina's performance of Everyday Everywhere is still one of my favourites to this day, and it's not because of the latter (Sorry Reina- love you really). She's a wonder to observe on stage whenever she sings, and she is able to both steal the show and stand back and let others shine. I respect that. She's one of those where you can truly tell that she loves what she does, which makes her performance all the more charismatic. Plus she had the balls to go short platinum blonde hair and managed to pull it off. Good on her. 

#10 Asakura Kiki & Tanitomo Ami

Never fear, Ami and Kiki are here.
I could not choose between them if I tried. And.. I tried (hamilton reference anyone?). Ami and Kiki are like the Mai and Airi of Tsubaki Factory to me. Kiki is pushed as ace, Ami is pushed as beauty. Kiki is a dorky thing, Ami is hilarious. Kiki can sing, Ami is learning. Originally, I liked Ami best because of her personality and her amazing art skills, but Kiki just needed to be Kiki and she quickly caught up. They're still fresh like the rest of Tsubaki, but I can only imagine the talent and beauty these two are going to show in 2-3 years time.

#9 Kawaei Rina. 

BANG BANG IT'S RICCHAN.
Ricchan is an angel. I mean.. look at her. She's so cute she could cure any plague. I saw Rina in the Bakajo test for AKB and I was immediately hooked (I am a sucker for dorks). Her centering in BKA48's Hasute to Wasute was absolutely amazing, and her further push into senbatsus for other singles was thrilling. She was well on her way to push out any other oshi's I had in AKB. She is a wonderful girl with a lot of charisma and charm, and she deserved so much better. I hope she is ok.

#8 Sasaki Rikako

Ever wonder where to go? Go to Rikako
I've loved Rikako since the first day she was announced in KSS. Yes, I was one of those who immediately jumped on board of the RikakoHypeTrain. And you know what? I am so glad I did. Sure, I wanted this girl in MM (I wanted everyone I loved in MM because my brain is too small to think further than that), but I could not be happier that she is in Angerme where she truly gets to be her own bizarre self and shine as brightly as I knew she could. She makes me so happy for some reason, and I think it's just because she looks so happy that it is contagious. She gives me energy. I love her.

#7 Tamura Meimi

As you can see, it's Tamura Meimi
Meimiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii come baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack.

#6 Maeda Atsuko

Saigo! Atsuko!

The ultra Ace of AKB48. I remember when I got into AKB, I couldn't help thinking: "Of course they're doing so well... They have Maeda Atsuko". In fact, all of the original Kami7 is so strong that it's no wonder AKB is what it is today to me. I always liked Maeda, but she didn't become one of my ultra favourites until after her graduation. The songs she released after her graduation are so pleasant and her voice is so wonderful and soothing. Specifically Time Machine Nante Iranai is actually one of my favourite idol songs because it just makes me feel so relaxed. That's Acchan for me - the embodiment of a soothing idol.

#5 Sayashi Riho

You know what's neato burrito? Sayashi Riho
Yes, I love Gocchin and Aibutt. Yes, they were fantastic, Top Tier Aces. Sayashi Riho will still always be my favourite ace. Thing is... I am not sure what it is about her that makes me so addicted. She just has that... something... that is inexplainable. I mean obviously there's her power-performance and absolute "Look-at-me" charisma... but there's something else as well about her that just gives me a need to root for her. She feels like a little sister that I want to see do well in life. She feels close to home somehow... if that makes sense. I don't know. Riho, wherever you are and whatever you're doing, I'm rooting for you.

Even as I am writing this, she keeps surprising me with how much I like her... I had originally placed her as  number 7... but that didn't feel quite right... so here she is.

#4 Yokoyama Reina 

Y'all knew she was coming, it's Yokoyamayama
Yes. She ranks this high. Is anyone surprised at this point? This girl is actual sunshine in human form! Despite having only been in H!P for a bit over a year, Yokoyan has managed to absolutely captivate me in a way I haven't experienced any idol doing that fast before. If I'm not careful, this girl could end me.
I honestly cannot complain about liking her this much so soon. That just means that I won't look back on the time she's had in the group when she leaves (in like 20 years plz) and wish I had enjoyed her more, ya kno? So yeah, I'm gonna enjoy everyday in the sun for as long as I can (maybe more than 20 years? plz?)

#3 Oshima Yuko.

Yuyuyuuko~
This girl is a top tier squirrel. She's hilarious, kind, brilliant, talented and beautiful. She was the best part about AKBINGO! for me, and it wasn't just cause the commentator had her as his oshi as well (though that was funny). She just seemed so effortlessly funny and charming, and she always managed to make me look for her in an episodes... and if she wasn't there, it was clear that something was missing. I love Yuko, and she made AKB for me.

#2 Suzuki Airi & Hagiwara Mai

Feel free with Mai and Airi 
Again, I could not chose between them. And once again, my reasons to love them has already been stated once on this blog. Airi is perfect, Mai is my muse. They're both so dear to me that it hurts.

Before I get to my obvious number one, here's some honorable mentions in no particular order.... There's TOO MANY FANTASTIC IDOLS AND I SO WANTED TO INCLUDED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THESE AAAAAH: Fujimoto Miki, Michishige Sayumi, Takahashi Minami, Matsui Jurina, Shimazaki Haruka, Yanagawa Nanami, Iikubo Haruna, Kishimoto Yumeno, Ogata Risa, Akiyama Mao, Ono Mizuho, Onoda Saori, Yamagishi Riko, Ikuta Erina, Takagi Sayuki, Miyamoto Karin, Uemura Akari, Ishikawa Rika, Shinoda Mariko, Yamazaki Yuhane, Kamikokuryou Moe, Ogawa Rena, Hamaura Ayano, Haga Akane, Itano Tonomi, Akimoto Sayaka. 

And now.... my number one is, of course: Kamei Eri




Sweet melody, Kamei Eri
Kamei Eri is an idiot. She is a dork. She is an airhead. She is absolutely the most incredible idol I have ever laid my eyes upon. Eri isn't even an angel, she's more than that. She's paradise. She's what I imagine good people see right before they die. She's everything I want to be and more. Maybe I'll make a post one day only about Kamei Eri, but for now.. She makes me laugh. She is wonderful.

And there we had it... this took way too long to make.. tho tbf I did stop at Gaki-sans to watch the entire Bakajo test again.. so.. yeah.

That's all for now, bye !

Hello! Project changes.

Hi everyone.
So as most of you know, the video finally announcing where the 3 girls from CG and the three KSS floating in the air aired today. And the results are.. well they are.

I can't say I'm disappointed, but I'm not really excited either. So I will try to make myself excited by reflecting here.

Let's start with the first that were announced in the video; the new members of Juice=Juice:


Former KSS: Danbara Ruru and former Country Girls: Yanagawa Nanami.

I'll say this before I change my mind, Juice=Juice was not a group I wanted to change. I wasn't particularily fond of them, I didn't hate them, but I didn't want them to be another gen/grads group.
But alas, it was to be expected that they were to add new members.. and here they are.  Yanamin and Ruru, welcome to Ju=Ju.

Ruru I don't have a problem with here.. she fits the mature, strong vocalled image of JJ perfectly, and might bring some competition to Karin and Sayubee as the powerhouses. So.. yay. But Yanamin. Yanamin was my favourite CG member along with Chisaki, but I do not see her in JJ. She is smol, cute, and extremely idol-like. Doesn't fit JJ's current image at all tbh. But she's there now, and I guess I have to look forward to how they use her in the group. If they shaft her, I am suing. I guess she is going to bring some great talking skills and freshness to JJ so they might change for the better. (And I will be forced to follow them now, as Yanamin is there.. so they have gained one new fan.. damn H!P for having their plans work exactly like they expected..)

Next announced was this:


Morito Chisaki.. my favourite CG member (along with Yanamin).. is in Morning Musume.. my favourite group. I should be ecstatic... but I'm not. Chii-chan is, with good reason, one of the popular members of Hello! Project right now. She is lovely, good at dancing and decent at singing. She great really. That's why I'm a little scared of putting her in MM. 13ki has just joined, and they have been pushed quite a lot. I, as a Yokoyan fan was really hoping to see her be pushed as the next face and/or ace of the group. But with Chisaki there, I'm afraid that both Kaedii and Yokoyan will be shafted. I would hate that.

On the other hand, Chiichan, who shone brightly in Country Girls, is going into a group full of girls where it won't be certain that she gets to shine as much. In CG, she was comfortable, goofy and adorable. In MM, she may be with time, but judging by her reaction, it might be a while. This could compromise her awesome ness, whilst simultaniously compromise the awesomeness of Yokoyan, Miki, Maria and Kaedii, the other rising stars of the Morning Musume.

But I have decided to support this idea until they give me a reason not to. I love Chiichan, I love Morning Musume 17. Why shouldn't I love them together?.

And finally, the last members to be added into existing groups:

Funaki Musubu, former CG and Kawamura Ayano, former KSS.

This. Is. Awesome.
Funaki, though I would have love to see her stay with her genmate and soulmate; Yanamin, I feel this is the perfect group for her outside CG. She is a powerful singer, aestheticlly different in a great way and, the most important thing: Craycray.
Ayano... well i don't know much about ayano except she had the balls to perform Mugen Climax and the KSS recitals. She is going to be great, I'm sure of it. And with the impending hiatus of beloved member, Aiai (please come back bby we love and miss you but also take care of youself and feel better ahh), I am SO PLEASED they added 2 members instead of one. This was it doesn't feel like a replacement, but simply an addition. The space in choreographies is still open for Aiai. They are still waiting for her. As are the rest of us.

But on top of these additions there was a new exciting announcement: THERE IS GOING TO BE A NEW UNIT WITH ICHIOKA REINA AS LEADER.
You know what this means?
YUHANEYUHANEYUHANEYUHANEYUHANEEEEEEEEEEE
ANDOTHERKSSBECAUSETHEYAREALLSOTALENTEDANDBEAUTIFULANDTHEYALLDESERVEIIIT

I am excite. I am ecstatic. And I managed to make my peace with all of these decisions.

I hope you all did too.

Thank you for reading,
That is all.

BIG ANNOUNCEMENT!!! MM'17 has no announcements to make at the end of their tour.

Hey everyone.

I am finally back home from Cap Verde with great internet and a functionning computer - and while it was a fantastic holiday, I am so glad to be home (though holy heck if it isn't warmer in this shithole of a country than fucking Africa, how is that even possible im dying help). 

So anyway, I woke up this morning to Morning Musume '17's concert being streamed live (yes I woke up late, I am slightly jetlagged, in Cap Verde  I woke up at 7:30 am, ok?) and I actually got into the livestream just as the lights were turned off and they started with a song from their newest (yet way too old. gimme something new now plz) single: Brand New Morning. Many had anticipated this concert, thinking there would be a huge announcement to be made, which isn't too weird considering MM never really livestreams unless there's something huge about to happen. Like 13ki for example (who were the last reason for a livestream). And considering H!P right now is kind of a mess with 3 KSS hanging over our heads with a debut announcement and nowhere to go and the poor girls from Country Girls being thrown into a new group as soon as Lord Momoko leaves despite their best efforts as CG, we all probably expected there to be some sort of clarification about what might happen to these 6 girls.

But alas, when the time for the last MC arrived and I was at the edge of my seat (not really, I was lying down in my bed.. but I was excited) waiting for this announcement to happen, it just.. didn't. In stead they announced the next tours name, which is "We Are Morning Musume", and then said their goodbyes with Happy Daisakusen and a fantastic performance of Bravo. And I am relieved. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't have minded an announcement about some of the 6 girls joining, I love all of them and feel they could have a great impact on the group. But having a concert streamed like this, without it having to be about a graduation or a new generation.. it's just kind of.. nice.

It gave me a chance to see the group as it is now - with 13ki having just joined - in their fullest power, without having anything to take the light of it. When 13ki was announced I have to admit I don't remember what happened before or after the announcement in the concert, but here - it was all about that. Their performance, their improvement, their power. And I loved it. It really was just a great concert. My favourite part was the 13ki medley, because DAMN these two.. Yokoyan and Kaedii.. Thank you so much for joining the group, the both of you (I know it's not their choice and whatever, but still. I wanted to thank them for their brilliance) . Nonaka Miki was another great plus of this concert because damn she is hilarious. Everyone got to shine individually in this concert and I appreciate that, heck even Oharu got lines and was adorable. So yeah, all in all, I am so happy the concert was about the group, and not an announcement. The setlist could have used more variety imho, but it was upbeat and powerful.

So yeah, the big announcement to me, is WE ARE AWESOME. WATCH US BE AWESOME ALL OVER THE WORLD. And I think that is fantastic.

More livestreams for the hell of it, plz.

Ok that's all. thank you for reading :)

Aftermath

Well I didn't mean for two blog posts in a row to be about C-ute (still don't know how to make the Celsius thingy), but in my last one I wrote it thinking I wouldn't get to see their last concert.

I was wrong.
Despite the horrible internet, bad quality livestream and complaining grandma, I actually got to see C-ute's live from start to finish live. It actually ended less than an hour ago as I am writing this, and it has been the most emotional concert I have ever seen. I was overcome with every possible feeling one could feel: I was laughing, crying, smiling, crying some more, felt hopefull, cried some more, was in awe and then cried again. I knew the girls were talented, I knew they were beautiful and I knew how well they worked together - yet once again they completely floored me. The set list was amazing in my opinion - the only thing missing from it was one of their three new songs and I miss you.

Now that it's over, I don't think it has quite hit me that they are gone - I mean I have cried like a baby, but I'm still standing, which I didn't think I would be. I immediately got dressed into pink and yellow to honour Mai and Airi hahah. Then I listened to their playlist on my iPod and sang and danced along - their discography really is briliant, isn't it?

I don't know.. at this time I'm not really sad - more.. grateful, I think? Or happy.. or nostalgic. I'm not too sure. I took screenshots of the concert (would post them, but internet is too shit) and as I look through them I'm just smiling like an idiot. I mean, look at them. They're shining. They're happy. They're so pretty. Whoever styled them for this concert, hat's off to you my friend, because they really all were at their best. And it was such a good show. And those white, long dresses that turned into short white dresses? YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs

and the VTR showing all the good times they had... it was probably around then that I cried the most. It was so well made and showed the girls for the lovely goofballs they are.


I'm going to miss them so much, but at the same time I'm just so happy to have been one of those who knew them when they we're C-ute.

I hope they have a wonderful life from now on.

9:10

Thank you Team ℃-ute

A Love Letter to C-ute.

As I am sitting on my mother's terrace in Cape Verde looking at a mountain shaped like a human with a giant head, a tiny body and a boner, I feel very inspired. And what should one do when one is inspired? Write, of course. And what better to write about, than the wonderful Japanese idol group: C-ute (I don't know how to do the little round thing on the C), and their upcoming disbandment.

left to right: Chissa, Naki, Maimi, Airi, Mai

Here's a problem though - I hate writing about it. I hate even thinking about it. Why? 
Because I completely, with every bone in my body resent the idea that they, in 2 days, will no longer be together as the group C-ute that I know and love. This may sound very dramatic, and possibly somewhat pathetic, but hey - I don't control how I feel (that well, anyway). And I'm pretty sure mourning the loss of ones favourite music groups is a pretty common thing. So yeah, that's what I'm doing. Mourning. And how can I not? Anyone who knows the group, knows how wonderful and talented the girls are - and how amazing they are together as C-ute. Starting off in 2005, they proved how amazing they are over and over again - hereby allowing them to keep their career for a good 12 years (which is basically 80 in idol years). 

I, however, didn't get to know them until 2012 with the release of Aitai Aitai Aitai Na, and by then, they had already become the 5 members they are today. Before that, I only knew of Morning Musume and Berryz Koubou, and I have to be honest - after getting to know BK, I quickly learnt about the competition/hatred between Team C-ute and Team BK. And even though I didn't care much for drama (ahhhhh the drama), I just stupidly assumed that this war existed because the two groups were so different that you couldn't enjoy one and like the other. I then took that... test... that pops up every once in a while, where you sort out who your favourites are from each group and in H!P as a whole, and there I stumbled upon a picture of Hagiwara Mai in her Aitai x3 na oufit, and all I could think was "what in all that is holy in the world, how can one person be so beautiful." And so I looked her up, and found out she was in this mysterious "C-ute with a weird o" group that I had heard so much shit about. I think my initial thought was "ohoh, how can I support her, if I don't like her group?". I then decided to listen to their newest song at the time and OOOOhohohohohoh boy was I surprised. That song was A.W.E.S.O.M.E. . And the members - Top tier, every single one of them. I remember being so pissed of at the BK fans for "keeping me away" from the group so long (even though let's be honest, if I wanted to listen to them, I could have just done so - but I was 16 and pregnant dumb) that lost interest in following that fandom at all. I still loved BK, and listened to their music when it came out, but I stayed away from their community (picture a dumb girl being extremely judgemental about a couple of comments she read online and then judging an entire fandom for it ... that was me.. yay) 

 

Mai in Aitai Aitai Aitai Na outfit... she .. so pretty

It didn't take long from there for C-ute to become my favourite group alongside MM. With one awesome release after another, C-ute was definitely the group with the highest quality members and the best songs. MaiMai continued to be my favourite, but after a while had to share first place with Suzuki Airi. And while I never had much interest in Nakky and Maimi, the two mentioned and Chissa all ranked really highly on my overall favourite list- to the point where all three were in my top 10. I have, however, come to appreciate Maimi and Nakky lately, and I have never denied that they are incredibly talented girls. Including today, I have had C-ute written down as my favourite artists since 2013 - only one year after getting to know them (and in february!).
On top of that, after reading a Wotaintranslation.com article about Chisato admitting she was in love with Mai when they were kids, I was inspired to write my first ever fanfiction about the two of them, which later turned into being about the entire group and more. That story is now 26 pages long on word and ongoing. That's how inspiring they are. That's how amazing they are. That's how breathtakingly talented they are.

That's why it's going to hurt like hell when they aren't around anymore.

In the idol world there has never been a group like C-ute - and after their disbandment, there never will be again. They have everything. Every member is important- every member shines on their own:

Yajima Maimi

The face, the model, the inescapable beauty and the Leader.

Maimi is perfection in human form, and anyone who tries to deny it is lying. With her feminine, strong facial expressions and her slender, athletic body (that is very well known for her perfect abbs) no one can deny the godlike aura around this girl. To me, it seems that she is both the dream girl - the one you always want but can never have, and the last girl - the wife - the one you instantly know you want to be with forever. This is due to her mixed aura of being unreachable on all fronts, but extremely welcoming and forgiving at the same time. It's no wonder she is so popular.

Nakajima Saki

The dancer, the girl next door, the performer.

With her unmissable dancing skills, Nakky is undoubtedly the best dancer H!P has every had. She is all the best dancers of Hello! Project x3, with an aura around her unlike any of the others (the only one to possibly come close is, imho, Manakan). I personally think this is partialy due to the fact that when seeing her for the first time, you can't possibly predict her amazingness. I remember seeing her for the first time, and thinking wow - she is definitely the "girly" girl of the group who turns "cool" when she dances, only to have my jaw drop when I saw the character I had built for her completely destroyed. When watching her dance, "girly cute" and "cool" becomes two completely interchangable things - which leaves me in a constant state of admiration.

Suzuki Airi

The Ace, the talent, the perfect idol. 

No words can describe the perfection that is Suzuki Airi. She has the face of an angel and a voice that matches, only to be a happy, humble goofball on top of it. She kills me. She is the only idol I know who is perfect in every single aspect - but still feels relatable somehow. Airi feels like that helluva cute girl you have always known and been friends with who you one day find out is UNREASONABLY, UNFORGIVABLY TALENTED. hell, she, along with Mai and Eri, is the reason I figured out I was bisexual. It's a surprise to no one why she is the ace of C-ute and of H!P.  It's no surprise H!P is gathering so much talent at the moment so they all can get together and fill the HUGE-ASS-SHOES Airi is going to leave all on her own. Fuck I'm going to miss her so much.

Okai Chisato

The comedienne, the hardworker, the powerhouse.

If there was ever an idol who deserved everything she has gotten, it is Chissa. Never have I seen such dedication and perserverance in working your way into the front lines. Never have I seen such talent being taken for granted until she took matters into her own hands and made things happen for herself. Never have I been more inspired by an idol. Because FUCK if Chisato isn't inspirational. From being, quite frankly, one of the funniest members of H!P  to being an incredible dancer and one hell of a singer, this girl has got everything. She is the powerhouse of the group. The one who feels like it would be almost degrading to call her and "idol", as she fits more into the category of "artists". And holy shit if she isn't the only member in the idol world who actually fits the word HOT.

and last but not least,

 Hagiwara Mai

The attitude, the underdog, the extra spice. 

I have so much respect for this girl. She has been an idol since she was 6 years old. At SIX. YEARS. OLD. she had to sing and dance professionally - where I, as a six-year-old, had troubles spelling my own name. We literally watched this girl grow from being a chibi little thing with eye troubles and sunglasses, to being the fierce, beautiful girl she is today. To me, she is the most interesting character in the group, as she is - to many - the "bitch". She's the one who isn't afraid to speak out when something bothers her. She's the one who is the most open book of them all, wearing her heart on her sleeve. Everything about her feels like the last spice you put in your food to make it taste just right, and without her something is just.. wrong. She is cut-throat, in your face and I fucking adore her.

Considering I joined the C-ute fandom rather late, I never got to experience the three great girls: Arihara Kanna, Umeda Erika and Murakami Megumi - which is something I regret deeply. But I know someone out there remembers and treasures them all deeply, and if one of them were to one day read this, they should write everything they love about them. Because I want to learn.

As I finish writing this, I am a mess. I am bawling, snorting and all in all being really gross.
I really didn't help myself by listening to C-ute songs while writing this.. What was I thinking? I'm an idiot.

But to my dear C-ute, all I want to say is; 

Thank you. 

Thank you for your music.

Thank you for your dedication, 

for the smiles and the laughter you have brought. 

Thank you for coming to Europe, even though I didn't get to see you.

Thank you for caring about us outside of Japan.

Thank you to Airi and Mai for laughing at me when I stared at them at a train station with my jaw hanging at my knees.

Thank you for having existed

as indiviuals

and together.

C-ute..

Thank you so much for the last 5 years of my life.

Oh look, my second blog post... centuries later.

So hi again.

I have not been good at having a blog. But I'm about to study creative writing, so I might as well practise on here. I have deleted all the old posts except for my first one because it is so cringy that I need to keep it. I don't know if I'll have a specific theme, I guess I'm just gonna write whatever I feel like. Though knowing myself, most of it will probably be idols and/or short stories anyway, so ayyyyyy for not changing since... 2013? Bruh.

It might be fun to talk to no one on here. I'm looking forward to it.
Either way, it's going to be a great way to evolve my writing.

Alright, bye for now. Here's hoping I do better this time.

Oh look. My first blog-post.

My first post on my first blog. I should use this time to introduce myself.. But I won't, because let's face it, Nobody cares!
All you need to know is that I'm me and I love idols!
And when I say I love idols, I mean.. I really love idols... or more specifically Japanese idols. And that's why I wanted to create this blog. I wanted to share my favourite groups, songs and videos with "the world" and maybe even write some fanfiction. Okay.. I'm not going to be especially original... But it's just for fun.

So for my first post ever, I would like to talk about which idols you might find on this blog.

As you can probably tell from my background, my favourite idol group is the ever so famous group a mound bloggers, Morning Musume (as I said, I'm not going to be especially original.). But I mean, how can you not love them? 

(The edit is not mine. Granted, I don't know who the editor is, as I found this randomly on google. Sorry editor..Please don't sue me, I'm broke.)

They are just such a perfect, well put together, epic, charismatic group. I can honestly say, I don't dislike anyone is this group whatsoever. My #1 is a tie between Kudo Haruka and Oda Sakura. I just can't make up my mind. The rest are all on 2nd place. My god they are all so wonderful. I always look forward to a new single, and so far they have not disappointed me once. I'm one of the few people who became a fan during the Platinum Era, but actually prefers the Colourful Era. Not that I have anything against the Platinum Era, in fact I love it dearly  (Kamei Eri, especially. My dear Eri <3)

Of course, Morning Musume is not the only J-pop group that I love. Other groups include ℃-ute, Juice=Juice, Berryz Koubou, S/mileage (basically all of Hello! Project xD), AKB48 (+sister groups), Cheeky Parade, Fairies, Kyary Pamyu Pamyu, Kalafina, Perfume, etc.

I'll try to blog as much as possible, but considering I'm in my last year of scool, it might not be as often as I hope. 
But I hope I'll see you all soon.